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The Teachings of Irmes

    OH this piece was waiting for so long to be finished... At first I started it and finished the lineart, but then it stayed unfinished for long, just before I actually moved my markers different apartments and started using them more. This is when I mostly did this piece - and I had so so so much fun with it! Mostly with Irmes' body (duhhh as always), the hair of the women and... Everything together! I honestly love the look and feel of marker filled paper - it is so oddly satisfying and I plan on making more pieces like this in the future.

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      "On Earth Irmes is also considered the creator of Dorianat, which is indeed true. Legends say that he had given women of Earth a possibility to learn Dorianat through his own lessons, making it achievable for humans to be even closer to the deity and therefore - the sun. It is also believed that the gift of prophecy (from cards) could be achieved only by the women who were taught or blessed by Irmes himself. Otherwise, some cannot see through the prophecy and words that the cards are sending."

Itimeir in black

    This particular outfit of Itimeir came to me when I was wearing a very similar outfit! Actually - I have the same boots (that I adore... Real leather to the win) and almost the same cape.

    I started this drawing and at first was mad at myself, cuz I thought I have ruined such a pretty drawing with a lineart... But it all worked out... Mostly. At first even after starting out with markers I wasn't fully excited for the finish line anymore, but I enjoyed coloring the "dress".. So the process is more important! But in the end - I think it looks pretty nice. I didn't intent to leave the background like that, but I think it's fitting.

    Itimeir's style has evolved so so much... And I had a struggle to find him one like 2 years ago! Wow, that's crazy.... Wait.. Not even 2 years ago, I'd say less... I didn't have an idea for him, but now I know! A lot of my looks would very much fit into his likings - I just know that. The fact that the whole outfit was inspired by me! I even wanted to give him my "military" styled black cap that is one of my all-time favourites. I wish people didn't stop wearing hats!

Vase

    After a long month of March that consisted of a very long anxiety attack that caused all my gut and stomach problems to come back unconsciously and after having my first ever panic attack I wished to draw so... Here was a kind of sketchy drawing of Irmes that I really enjoyed doing.

    The whole page had 2 drawings - this one and one that I didn't finish, but hope to do soon. 

    There's nothing so particular - just Irmes on his casual day carrying a vase on his side as he usually would do. However he's dressed a bit more extravagantly on this day, so maybe there's something more to it? Maybe he's preparing his space for some bigger social event, so he didn't bother to put on his veil just yet. Or maybe he just likes to be overdressed like that in his house for Paris? Whatever is the story, I know that I love his accessories...

 Front page be looking so Irmes coded right now.

Just Irmes. 

 I have also done a speedpaint of this drawing, feel free to check it out! 

Princess carry

    It's just such a lovely drawing... Makes me very happy whenever I look at it! It's so simple, yet very pretty with the ornaments on the side and little pink accents. This drawing was like a comeback to my little break that I had (I didn't draw at all for 2-3 weeks), so at first I very much struggled with the pose, because I had to turn a woman on a reference to Irmes LOL. Overall - at first I was like meh. But then I fixed some things and I even love how Paris turned out! I usually never am able to draw how big he actually is lol, but I think I kind of managed to draw his body type kind of accurately. He could be a little bit more big still, hehe... But then there would be no space for Irmes, who truly came out very pretty! He was supposed to look more surprised, but he ended up looking as If he was drugged. Oh well

    It's been sooo long ever since I told myself that I would draw this pose with Irmeris!! Though, I know I have saved some pose references and I couldn't find them for the love of God. So I improvised with other reference... It was alright. Back then I wanted to draw the princess carry in their wedding attire.

    I kind of wish to draw a bigger piece of the little drawing in the left corner...

Ah Kat...

    I like the linework of this one... So lively lol

     Especially on Itimeir.. I just looove drawing him and I always get him perfectly, but I guess that's cuz he's fairly easy and pleasant to draw! And fun, mostly.

    I don't have much to say about this drawing, other than well... Katamenos being Katamenos lmao... Being called gay would be the biggest insult for him, because he will never admit his feelings ever. He even says he's not into men or something, because Itimeir doesn't have a gender LMAO... He ignores the dick part about him tho... so..... Oh we love victorian men getting frustrated with their own sexuality 

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 Hi! This is the owner here. Due to me lacking social medias, I wanna make this special archive as an actual archive of my thought process behind the showcased drawings as well! I already changed the boring white and black page that I previously had and want this space to be as personal as my main blog is too! So in close future You will be able to see descriptions under some of my more recent arts.

See You soon! xx

My lovelies

    This is the drawing that makes me so happy and just... The one of the kind that I come back every day and smile to myself while doing so.... Itimeir and Katamenos are the type of ship that I lack ideas for now... But they are still so special to me, I can get so emotional about them - indeed they are more special to me than Irmes and Paris. Both of my main paring in my universum all have different roles in my mentality... Despite being both equally special in my heart. I draw Irmes and Paris more, I think about them more and.. I give them more lore - because I have more ideas for their love.. And not gonna lie - their ship is way more interesting.

    But they weren't the ones that saved me from myself in 2020.

    Now I only wish for my deep love for Itimeir and Katamenos to deepen in my roots all over again... And make me tear up for them again.

They are not just some characters for me.

Lou in a corset

    Simple drawing of Katamenos' sister - Lou! It was one of my first drawings as again.. a come back for markers... Well well well..... It turned out so beautiful! And the lineart... it was so perfect, I was worried I am gonna ruin it. For some reason I always draw her in the corset - but I know the reason - my love for corsetry.

I love lobotomy

    This is something that I drew as a short break from doing one of my bigger pieces for assignment (out of like gosh, almost 100 other drawings for it). I guess I just very much had an interest in drawing Itimeir out of his prepped by Asynes "brain surgery" that was supposed to diagnose where did the God of the Solar System made a mistake when creating Itimeir.

    This is him, after he murders Taruni.

    I really love his hair! Longer time ago I started to love drawing sharp and unravel/jaggy hair like that. I guess it had became part of my art style! Especially on Itimeir.

Paint Tool Sai test

    Some time ago I started using Paint Tool SAI again.. The first version. TBH I just hate how Clip Paint Studio looks and makes me feel... I am this type of stupid person to have the comfort of a "nice" looking program to feel the enjoyment from the art. Yes I am pretty dumb, but for some reason PTS just has this capability of making a white interface look so.. clean. CPS doesn't and is cluttered with so many shit options that when You work with so much layers, despite making groups and naming them, they all just blend together... But PTS handles this perfectly somehow.

    I guess I started making sketches or just starting some drawings in SAI for the nostalgia, but also - somehow the brush dynamics and how its it works makes the basic brushes so.. satisfying to use. Like You don't need anything more! And You don't - Paint Tool SAI is like remembering to appreciate what we have and work with it in the best way possible.

    For a moment I was sad about the liquify tool, but then I thought like.. "but somehow for these 8 years before it being introduced to CPS You never needed such a tool." and everyone lived - we just learnt to see our own mistakes and draw it all again, the traditional way. And at the end of the day... It's not something that I'd die without. Ofc sometimes I had moments like.. Eh I wish I had it, but then I forgot about that thought completely after I manually fixed the mistake.

    

    It's a pure bliss to come back to minimalism, even in digital art.

Which nightgown's better?

   

       This drawing was just a bit inspired by one scenario that I had in mind.... The one that made me think of how Itimeir's room looks in detail. I had two visions of it before, but it changed, with some additional logic changes etc. But as Irmes - Itimeir has his own walk-in wardrobe that I kind of drew here! Isn't this so... Interesting? (no)

    I also always wondered what Itimeir sleeps in... And I guess I most likely see him wearing quite plain clothes/nightgowns. One that I for sure know would be his official nightgown is something that looks similar to women's medieval chemise (ifykyk) - I mean, like a short, ending before knees white linen robe/shirt/gown with too long loose sleeves and a deep scoop neckline. Without any ornaments, which is surprising as for a king, but not for Itimeir - who is pretty much minimalistic in his clothing.

    This drawing was just some small sketch done on lectures.

Itimeir's dead roses

 

    This was just a... Typical Itimeir drawing.

    The thing is - this is literally all Itimeir is. This drawing is like... The definition of ITIMEIR. The dark roses, the chains, the bow, the lace, the nudity, the absent kind of weak expression and the abstract background... This is just him. Oh - and the dark and white contrasting colors. The minimalism and complexity of Itimeir. 

    Just Itimeir, Itimeir, Itimeir. ITIMEIR.... Ah

    Though, I should talk more about the piece itself - I started it in Paint Tool Sai, finished in Clip Paint Studio as always. I wanted to add a beautiful sword (which would add to the aesthetic) but It was too much imo. I like the minimalistic state of this drawing.

    The fact that I mixed the fully finished character with a sketchy and "sloppy" background is what I usually do - therefore I try to take advantage of my sloppiness. I have noticed that I tend to be VERY sloppy about everything in my art... And I find it difficult to break that - my lines are fast, dynamic, not so perfectionistic... So I'm trying to take advantage of that. The sloppiness, "jagginess" of everything is what is the part of me - something that defines my art, my writing, my life and emotions. It's kind of... The reflection of my personality and as said - emotions.  That's why I learned to make the sloppiness its own kind of art and I see it as something beautiful. Let's start hating perfection - it's boring and everyone already does that.

    Anyways. If I had to kind of say something about Itimeir here, then well... My psychotherapist, when shown this particular picture, asked whether Itimeir was a girl or boy LMAO and I laughed so hard HA, I replied that it depends on the interpretation... Cuz It's true I guess. And yes - this piece is supposed to kind of confuse the receiver - Itimeir's body is. And I think that I did it so well and he is beautiful the way he is... I am happy with his I guess kind of flat and smooth silhouette. It's very elegant and so well fitting into his symbolism, concepts etc. Itimeir makes me feel like I myself can be beautiful too, despite being surrounded by the opposite thoughts from others.

    I don't think there is much to talk, as the symbolism could be clear. I also don't like saying out what each piece means - I like leaving everything up to the receiver.

    These particular themes just... Feel like home.

The New Fatum

 

        Itimeir and his God of the Solar System design... Though - the gown is different.

        His jewelry is so beautiful - especially the belt. I am thinking about making this as his side outfit for this form, as it's just so minimalistic, yet elegant and pretty - just like him in his new, empty life.

    I actually like Itimeir with the lack of his typical bangs - this short hairstyle makes him look so mature... Despite the tragic story of him cutting it. Itimeir was stripped of his sense of self, of his past and all he was fighting for the moment it happened. 

    And he was the oppressor of his own self.

    

    I very much love how his legs turned out and the shading on them. The background looks like a lemon.. I was playing with it and wanted to fill the whole bg, but was scared to.

Official attire - Katamenos

 

    I never draw Katamenos... I am so sad! But also lack ideas :( I wish I could be crazy about him like I was in 2020 lmao... I guess back then he was more of a comfort character than now - and I guess he's not the type of ocs I get attached to. Still - he's very much special. TBH I relate to all my main ocs - Irmes, Itimeir, Paris, Katamenos in my own, special way. Each of them share some details that You may catch that are the key to my feelings and what I've gone through.

    At first glance me and Katamenos are polar opposites, but don't be surprised to see the similarities.